I want something simple, something easy, something real. I've had to work at things for too long, I want something effortlessly amazing. I felt that I could have that with someone. I didn't understand his reservations & holding back. I wanted to knock some sense into his brain. I thought he was thinking about things too much. I wanted him to just go with it, experience it. I thought, "Why hold back in life? You only get one change at it."
I've realized since then that his reservations are more realistic than my feelings. I'm glad he has them, because I now feel the same way he does. Neither one of us are ready for that at this point in our lives. We have to much to grow, to experience, to learn about ourselves.
When I have a connection with people, it frustrates me when that connection is denied or postponed or not nutured. That applies to anyone in my life.
They say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. That has never applied to me. I always realize how great something is & fully appreciate it.
I've never lost faith in love.
Who I am, Who I'm not, & Who I want to be.
Why'd you have to wait? You found me.
There are some qualities that I posses that I am trying to mature from & discard: overeagerness, I fall too hard, too fast; childish tendencies: when I want something I have to have it, now.
I have realized that I am a very open person, with practically everyone. The person that I would really like to be with is pretty much the complete opposite. Is it bad to be so open with people?
Does that cause me to trust people too easily? Too quickly? What does cause that, if not my openness?
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