I should go & this should end.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Current mood:conflicted

I don't know what I want. I take that back, I know exactly what I want. I just can't have exactly what I want. I can either settle for one thing or another.

Someone once told me that I make things more difficult in life than need be. That same person also told me that people chose the easiest option. That part of me that makes things more difficult, is the same part of me that hates being like everyone else & strays from the norm, just to be something special, something different, something uniquely me. This is my rebellion. This is my individuality. My independence. My path.

I don't know. You couldn't.

Only three strings hold me back. How thin are they? How strong? Every ounce of my being pushes against them. Pushes to the road less travelled. Will I cut them? What will I allow myself to risk? Will I allow myself to risk? Or will I allow the strings to become stronger & the push less?

Sight is stronger than any word.

Could this song fit any better? Dave always speaks to/for me.

To change the world, start with one step
However small, the first step is hardest of all
Once you get your gait, you'll be walkin' tall
You said you never did, cuz you might die tryin'
Cuz you might die tryin', cuz you...

If you close your eyes cuz the house is on fire
And think you couldn't move until fire dies
The things you never did, oh, cuz you might die tryin'
Cuz you might die tryin', you'd be as good as dead
Cuz you might die tryin', cuz you might die tryin'

If you give, you begin to live
If you give, you begin to live
You begin, you get the world
If you give, you begin to live
You get the world, you get the world
If you give,YOU BEGIN TO LIVE, YOU MIGHT DIE TRYIN'
Oh you might die tryin', you might die tryin'
The things you never did, oh cuz you might die tryin'
You'd be as good as dead
The things you never did


Safe? or Extraordinary?

Have I ever taken a risk in my whole life?

I find some peace tonight. In the arms of an angel, fly away from here.

Currently listening:
Stand Up
By Dave Matthews Band
Release date: 2005-05-10